This is my first attempt at a blog or online journal, so those that enter..beware. I'm not known for being subtle. As a matter of fact I've been called cold, icy, mean, hard-hearted, and those are just a few. I don't really think I am any of those. I like to think that I'm just honest and upfront. I find no use for those who hide behind lies or false pretenses. As my favorite quote states.. Life is too short not to do what it takes to be happy. I think that applies to all of lifes facets. I know there are some out there that will definitely disagree, but that's their choice. It's a free world, they are intitled to their opinion. I'll post poetry or random thoughts from time to time.
The smallest one..
The smallest one among the stars
which can't be seen from earth or mars
has lost it's power, this is true
and can't be seen by me or you.
But we don't care about a star
which can't be spotted from a far
We only love what we can see
and that's what's killing you and me.
Maybe He Knows
I still remember it,
Trying to compare him to something, anything
For a point of reference.
But there was nothing to grasp,
For her was something entirely new
To my concept of beauty.
He redefined my desires
Not just in how my eyes liked to look at him
But in how everything around him
Became more exciting, more alive.
It was another world for sure,
One beyond the clay of my normality.
He was so beautiful to me,
But to try and tell him was futile
He could never understand it.
No one could.
For who could grasp a longing
That was beyond boundless.
Yet, sometimes when his eyes met mine
I felt that he might know.
I was sure of it once, I think.
Then again, maybe not.
Can he catch the rain in his hands,
Can he pull down the stars at night?
No, he cannot know how I see him
It is too much, even for me to feel it.
A dreamer’s dream,
A message that can never be delivered
A cloud too high in the sky
A red rose lying under a tree.
O that he could sense it now,
Not just my craving for him
Which never ends
But that he is beautiful.
Maybe he knows
Maybe he knows.
Not In This Life
Down my face too many tears
Feelings wasted through the years
Wishing, hoping, loving you
Wondering if you loved me too
Unanswered wishes that no-one hears
Your not there to stop my fears
Pain goes through me like the sharpest knife
Because I'm not yours, not in this life.
Now Its Our Time
This is the true season of love
When we believe that we can finally love
No one has loved like us before
And no-one will ever love like us again.
For our love is unique
Our love is strong,
Our love is a deep union
And together we belong.
Not a day has gone by in my life
Since my eyes saw deep in yours
That I have not thought of you,
Loved you,
Cherished you
And I want to love you all of my life.
In my darkest moments and my brightest days
You have been my sunlight
You have been my true love
You have been my home.
So from this moment on
I will promise you understanding
I will promise you trust
I will promise you a home with me
But most of all, I promise you love.
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